Soaring

I don't hate school... I hate the stress it instills in me. {ragged sigh} I was near a nervous breakdown over my interim report this morning.

Between grades, trying to make something of myself, finding out what I plan to do with my life, making sure my mom doesn't have any reason to fuss at me, improving my skills as an artist, my families financial problems... I have alot that's either getting me stressed or upset. Don't forget to mention I look at my friends and I instantly feel like I'm nothing. I look at them and I see people who are gonna become something someday. While I'll grow up to be nothing like everybody believes I am. I aint too far from ripping my hair out in frustration or beating my head against something. ;____; I hate to sound so EMO but it's the truth. I feel like pure crud.

I hope things get better cause right now I don't want them to get any worse. (And now I feel bad beacuase I'm here complaining and people probably have worse off than me... Geh... will the cycle EVER END?!)

A good friend of mine from a while ago contacted me yesterday. <3 It felt good to hear her voice after like... 2 years I think? It's been a while. Turns out she moved up north where I can't reach her but thankfully she can call me on saturdays and we still have Gaia to talk over so all is good. <3

Another friend of mine though is moving... A friend I've known for 5 years of spending time together. Laughing, crying and just enjoying each others company. My little sis will be gone sometime around halloween. She said we can keep in contact over IM but... It just won't be the same. But a ray of hope says that one summer I may be able to fly out and see her. At least there is still that.

I've talked to ordona a couple times and from those times I've talked to her  she definately must be one of the nicest and coolest people I've met in life. x3 I found out about her on deviantart and she left a comment on my page one day as well as on my journal and I got past my shyness and decided to say hi to her. I'm glad I did. x3
 

It's the fourth of july, fireworks are going off everywhere, the smell of babecue is hanging in the air, me and my good friend played some awesome rounds of super smash bros. brawl, and overall today has been good....

And here I am confused and in tears.

For a good while we've had stray cats outside. They've had many litters of kittens. Recently a new litter was born. One kitten out of the four or five there is the runt. A little guy with a huge sense of curiosity. He'll wander around and if I go into the yard he'll follow me like a little puppy.

But he's too curious for his own good. The other day he nearly wandered under a lawn mower. Today he sat plainly in front of a moving car I was in(I begged to get out and picked him up and moved him out of the way), After that he wandered plainly into a sharp plant stub and poked his eye, and lastly just a few minutes ago some neighborhood kids came over and said he had nearly got hit by a firework. Now he's sitting beside me in a big box on a towel and finally sitting still.

I have no idea what to do! He hasn't been weened and I don't know how to feed him, I'm to scared to let him outside again beacause he may pull another stunt like that, Even then I'm scared he'll wander off and get hurt somehow by falling into the canal and getting eaten by a gator, getting into the cage of that nasty pitbull down the street and getting ripped to shreds, getting lost and starving to death, being run over by a car, getting attacked by a racoon or one of the bigger cats... I just don't know what to do! No one else around here knows what to do either... Oh please god let this all turn out okay....

 I think I got the hang of this somewhat... I still wish I could've found a yuna layout like I wanted. If you know of one for S2 please let me know.

I started this livejournal cause I felt like starting one. Nothing much to it. I still need to get the hang of everything. Like having a partial post with a little link to the full post and whatnot. xp At any rate I got it up and running. So that's a step foreward at least.

 Testing again....

Just testing out how this all works. I won't be officaly postingtill I find out exactly how to do all this. o.0